Gaps, patches and in-betweens

When opportunity starts knocking, it comes one after the other. Sometimes, overlapping even. Is it bad timing? Or is it just fate teasing, flirting with you? Has it been decided on already or do we really have a choice in what happens? Or are our choices premeditated by our unconscious state of being and circumstance, with influences from social structures and other influential internal and external factors? And in the end is there ever really a choice? I would like to think that there is. When we look at ourselves, and others around us, and thinking about the opportunities presented to us in the past, and the present that we are looking at is less than the promise of amazing than was expected, we think: what the hell happened? And should one be faced with the question about one's own life - how do you answer that and be true to yourself? Do you say: life happened - which is a measly excuse for whatever happened to you and does not sound like owning up to wrong decisions and choi...

I first met her at an action protest event in Bangkok. Ok. Press rewind button. Bwzzzt. I first met her online for the action event protest in Bangkok on climate change. It was a skype meeting. We were both based in Chiang Mai but we never really met each other in person. Then we saw each other at the event itself a few days after where we joined the protest actions that culminated in a big event with all concerned groups and citizens telling the people inside the UN building to get their acts together, stop the yapping and commit to lesser carbon emissions. She was French, very pleasant and pretty. I think the boys only called me for a drink after the events to use me to get Amelie to go - but I was in Chiang Mai by the time they called. Shortly after the Bangkok events I left my work and have not been in touch with the group or with Amelie. Almost four months after, I saw an ad for a job here in Chiang Mai with a position that seemed to be crafted for me in Amelie’s organization. I w...