Batteries unlimited

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After nine months of being one,
They wheeled one body inside the delivery room,
And brought out two
The only visible link between us is cut
You breathe on your own
I look at you and though the shape of the face, the mouth, are like mine,
are not. They are solely yours.

You lose interest in my breasts as
You learn to eat the food provided by the earth and
Not by mother.
You crawled, stood up, walked
And now cross the street
without holding my hand anymore.

You start leaving home for school, your friends,
your own world
that I am only a part of when you tell me your school stories
A whole afternoon of each day
Without me
Eventually a full day
Sometimes even nights now with sleepovers.

An invisible knife stabbed my heart
when you didn’t want me to pick you up in school
Or decide not to go with the family to town
You used to never want me to leave, or leave without me
You slowly slip away from me
As you gain and take hold of your life.

During those precious moments
when you put your head on my lap
And tell me something that happened just moments ago,
I hold my breath wishing time will run out of battery
and freeze this moment.
But it doesn’t.
You get up and run out to play.

I only hope you make the right choices
And can only wish you think of me sometimes.



Monday, December 05, 2005

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Gapping, patching and in-betweening said…
For my eldest' birthday on the 27th December
8:55 PM
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