Divine Intervention ? And totally weirded out
I was walking along the alley of the St. Joseph Church the other day on my way home, (I call it an alley because that's exactly what it is. People use it to get from Aurora Blvd to the back street without going around the corner of Anonas. Kind of like a short cut.) Anyways, so I was on my way home, thinking of the cheese I promised my daughter I'd get because she wanted pasta for dnner. In the middle of choosing whether I go to Ansons or Hi top, right in that alley, I became conscious of organ music sound and a choir singing.
All of a sudden, in the midst of that busy alley and seemingly the wrong setting in an awful theatrical scene, extreme emotions welled up inside me like my heart was so full I was going to burst. I was about to sob! I couldn't place what was the top emotion because it seemed everything a person can feel was scrambling to get out, racing each other all at the same time. Without missing a step and part panicking, thinking I was going to have a vision of some sort, I became conscious of the people whizzing past me, blurry from the tears in my eyes.
My feet kept walking. At the end of the alley to the right is the Catholic Church. I thought of whether I should drop by, or not, because I still have to get that cheese, or that I'll just peek in the church and see how it is inside, but my legs were already taking me to the church.
I found myself just outside. I didn't dare enter.
I looked around. Peeople came and went. Some were kneeling. Some dipped their hands in the holy water by the door before going in or out. Some just stood and bowed their heads. Some whizzed through while some were deep in devoted prayer. I looked across and didn't know where to look or who to address. My prob because I think the divine is around you and not a in a certain one place. Words stumbled in my mind. "I don't have anything to say except, Thank you." And before the tears flowed I willed my feet to take me to the grocery store, wiping my eyes along the way.
The past month has been a whirlwind of emotions for me. Major decisions made. Relationships difficult. Change is just a month away.
I miss my mom.
All of a sudden, in the midst of that busy alley and seemingly the wrong setting in an awful theatrical scene, extreme emotions welled up inside me like my heart was so full I was going to burst. I was about to sob! I couldn't place what was the top emotion because it seemed everything a person can feel was scrambling to get out, racing each other all at the same time. Without missing a step and part panicking, thinking I was going to have a vision of some sort, I became conscious of the people whizzing past me, blurry from the tears in my eyes.
My feet kept walking. At the end of the alley to the right is the Catholic Church. I thought of whether I should drop by, or not, because I still have to get that cheese, or that I'll just peek in the church and see how it is inside, but my legs were already taking me to the church.
I found myself just outside. I didn't dare enter.
I looked around. Peeople came and went. Some were kneeling. Some dipped their hands in the holy water by the door before going in or out. Some just stood and bowed their heads. Some whizzed through while some were deep in devoted prayer. I looked across and didn't know where to look or who to address. My prob because I think the divine is around you and not a in a certain one place. Words stumbled in my mind. "I don't have anything to say except, Thank you." And before the tears flowed I willed my feet to take me to the grocery store, wiping my eyes along the way.
The past month has been a whirlwind of emotions for me. Major decisions made. Relationships difficult. Change is just a month away.
I miss my mom.
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